Things have been hopping around the Jones' house since then. School officially started August 12, and my munchkins started on the 14th. The start of school is always busy and tiring...it doesn't get less exhausting with time for sure. I'm pretty sure everyone knows I love special needs preschool so finding out that I needed six hours of credit by November 4 sent me into a small panic. I knew I had to do it because I love my munchkins and what I do. August 27 I started two classes online through University of Phoenix, insert crazy and busy Sarah. Classes ended on Monday and I survived with an A and an A-. Woohoo! I'm blessed with a very patient husband who handled more cooking and cleaning duties than usual. I'm also very blessed to work with wonderful people that helped with papers, let me do observations, and lots of people that just kept encouraging me along the way.
In the midst of homework and teaching, meeting Dr. Morris and having our consultation wasn't as high on the priority list. Fall Break seemed like the ideal time to try and get in. I really don't want to use too many of my days before IVF time. (Although I'm praying this round will be much smoother)
We were able to get our appointment for October 24. Insert a little nervousness at the thought of starting the process all over again. While we aren't stressing about anything until we meet with the doc, there is a lot to think about! The actual IVF itself isn't scary, the shots, ultrasounds, bloodwork...they aren't the hard part. The hard part is the waiting and not knowing. While the Cade Foundation has blessed us with the ability to do a cycle again, there is still the cost of medication. At times, it is easy to think about whether we are doing the right thing...we have spent less than most on fertility treatments thanks to the Cade Foundation but at times we have to think about whether we should have spent it on adoption. God has told me through this journey I will know when it's time to pursue adoption, and so far I'm not there yet.
If I'm going to be honest, I think the fertility treatments and loss have done amazing things for my faith. I went through the angry phase for sure and let God know I wasn't happy...looking back everything has brought me to where we are today. Without being down after the miscarriage, I'm not sure I would have stepped out of my comfort zone and joined the Bible study at church. I'm so thankful that I did! I look forward to Tuesdays with my girls and feel a void when I miss it. It really helps keep me grounded and remember God has a plan for us. I'm really excited that I will have this group to support me as we move forward. We have been covered in prayer all along, but having a small group of support is really exciting as I look ahead.
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| February 1998 |
Let's talk about Joe for a minute. When we started dating in 1998, I'm sure he had no clue what he was getting into!
Each day I have to love this guy more! Our journey through infertility has brought us closer together through the ups and downs. I'm thankful God gave me a man that has the patience to deal with me daily, it's not an easy job. Joe could write a book on surviving life with a preschool teacher wife. Bless his heart for blowing up therapy balls. I love having someone that lets me share my excitement and passion for preschoolers and who doesn't roll his eyes when I start rambling. I was asked if I knew anything about a toddler bed that someone was getting rid of. It just happens that my husband was able to get a frame, board, and a mattress. Now this munchkin will have a bed that will last longer than the toddler one. Some guys wouldn't be as understanding and compassionate for helping out a child he's never met. Another Joe rocks story...we have a little tricycle at school that is the perfect size for my tinier friends. The pedal fell off the other day. Jones couldn't fix it on the spot, but said I'd take home to Joe. My munchkin replies, "Joe needs to fix and get the pedal on the little bike." Joe spent two hours Thursday night trying to fix the pedal and woke up at 5:30 Friday morning to tell me he hadn't fixed it. Saturday he got a part at Menards...but it wasn't the right size. As I type, he's taken the bike apart and is going to get the right part and spray paint it! What may seem as little things to some are huge blessings and mean so much.
One huge praise is the Cade Foundation grantees were announced for 2014. Five couples are going to move forward in their journey to a family thanks to the Cade Foundation blessings. It's so exciting! I will never forget the Sunday evening when we received the phone call we were selected to receive a grant. Pray for these couples as they start to plan and move forward! As far as praying for us, just pray that we (mostly me) will remain calm and listen as we meet with Dr. Morris. I have been with Dr. Bopp and Alison forever it feels, this is a huge change. I'm confident that we will feel comfortable with Dr. Morris. After all, he donated a cycle of IVF for the raffle. Pray that we will be able to take what he shares with us and come up with a game plan. Here's one thing I struggle with and you can pray for me on...whenever we meet and talk about our next procedure I get really excited, hopeful, and ready to roll. Joe is the level headed one that will figure out a logical time line and keep me grounded. It's always exciting to have a new plan, but there are lots of things that factor in when we plan a cycle. Going to Chicago for treatment will be another point to consider...I'm praying for a mild winter!
Thanks for reading my ramblings! I appreciate the love, prayers, and support we get.
Love always!
Sarah and Joe
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